Walking with My Higher Power & Eminem

_{Phoenix, the wind beneath my wings, this one's for us.}  

Monday morning, the world still stretching it's limbs when I laced up my takkies and hit the pavement.  I didn't have a plan, no pressure, just me, my breath and the beat of my feet on the ground with the intention of getting out of my head and back into my heart.  In that moment, I handed my playlist over to my higher power.  No skips. No shuffling. Just trust.  "Play what I need, not what I want" was the prayer.  What followed felt like a mixtape from my soul to my self.  Here's what was revealed:

🎧 Believe – Eminem

This one stopped me in my tracks. The lyrics hit like a lightning bolt through my ribcage and my entire being lit up, goosebump by goosebump.  It wasn’t about proving myself to anyone out there, it was about me finally believing in me.  It was my inner child whispering, “I need you to fight for us.”  and yelling, “We’re not giving up now.”

🎧 Come One – Faithless

A reminder that I’ve shut down faith before... in love, in life, in myself. But here it was, walking beside me, like footprints in the sand, inviting me back in, no force, just invitation, a choice to take it or leave it.

🎧 I Belong to You – Lenny Kravitz

Not to any human, not to a man, not to a mission, to me.  I am mine. Fully.  Fiercely.  Finally.

🎧 Stand by Me – Skylar Grey

If I could write one song to my inner child, this might be it.  "Even if I can't find heaven, I'll walk through hell with you." and damn, haven’t we?  Does this one resonate with you?

🎧 Ain’t No Rest for the Wicked – Cage the Elephant

Because money doesn’t grow on trees, trauma healing isn’t a 9-to-5 and we’re not here for hustle culture.  I giggled a little during this one, not gonna lie...And then... the dustbin diggers.  I watched a man, deep in a bin, searching and my heart cracked. Not from pity, but from something much more real.  Then, this line dropped into my chest: “Don’t follow me until you’ve followed someone who isn’t even on socials” because real wisdom doesn’t always show up in reels.  Because some of the deepest teachers are the ones the world doesn’t see and so I walked... Taller... Truer... Lit up from the inside out.  

This wasn’t a playlist. This was a ceremony, a devotion, a soul-hug, an "I see you" and a reminder that sometimes the most sacred relationship we’ll ever have, is the one with ourselves.

So here’s my question to you:  What song are you dedicating to yourself today?  

You deserve a soundtrack that makes your cells remember who the hell you are.

Love,

Keilah